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spellminders2017-08-02 01:05 pm
lalliho) wrote in spellminders2017-08-02 01:05 pm
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[He's closed himself off. He thought it might help -- slow your surroundings to a standstill, and maybe everything going on inside would learn to slow as well. When he got control over himself, he could control this stupid magic of his that was given to him. He thought he'd be happy, getting back the gifts he was born into, but even with them, the storm inside had been roaring enough to keep him up night after night.
Which meant he'd been even more cut off than he'd intended.]
I can't sleep. I need to. Tell me...what to do.
[Simple as that. Just help him rest, please...]
Which meant he'd been even more cut off than he'd intended.]
I can't sleep. I need to. Tell me...what to do.
[Simple as that. Just help him rest, please...]
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[This is...probably confirmation? It's unhappiness, anyway. What else is new.]
That's why I'm trying to make it happen. You're not always burning things. [So he shouldn't have to always have insomnia!!]
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I know! Of course I'm not! ( Calm down, Em, don't get too heated. ) Something about it seems...different, though.
( Articulating what he means is a different story, but if he hasn't slept in 30-some odd days...but Lalli is the magic expert between the two of them, so his dissent wavers. This is also the first conversation they've had in quite a while and he doesn't want to screw it up. )
I've seen people with magic from back home. ( Whether or not they call it magic, it's magic to Emil. ) Does that mean you have your other magic too? The Finnish mage stuff.
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Anyway. Not fighting him too much is good because Lalli is still struggling with the fact that Emil was a wrong person who knew nothing and Lalli was always right even though that meant everything was a disaster all the time forever. Things just weren't nice.
...Which would actually mean there's no chance of him sleeping if he dwells on this for too long SO YES, HELLO. NEW TOPIC.]
...Mm. Yes. [It's a relief, and he's...sort of impressed? Emil's stupid didn't get in the way of this revelation. Wow.]
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That's good then! So you can... ( ....wait, Emil doesn't actually know what that means other than spooky ooky spirit stuff, and even then he couldn't actually explain it very well even if he tried ) do mage stuff again, right? You were worried about that, after all.
( It's been a while, but he remembers!! )
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Lalli...will just have to stomp out this spark of hope.]
...Not all of it. If I'm going to try to get help, I need to be able to sleep.
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Hmm...do you like tea? I think that's supposed to make you sleepy. Lots of blankets can also do the trick. ( Being warm in general is really sleep inducing to him as compared to shivering cold temperatures, but that's not abnormal. ) Maybe if you try out a bed for a change it might be easier.
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[...That's a really lame way to sum it up. How is he supposed to convey that he doesn't feel safe sleeping in them when Emil has barely dipped his toe outside the safe zone? Especially when he realizes it's irrational...]
I don't think we had tea.
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It doesn't taste as good as coffee does. ( It was hard to switch from coffee regularly to tea most of the time when the money dried up. ) You can add things to it to make it taste better, but the main point is it's supposed to be relaxing, so it's the opposite of coffee anyway.
( It...didn't actually soothe him since he didn't like the taste, so maybe this is useless oops. )
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I don't care.
[He doesn't feel bad letting Emil know that since he just wasted his time and also they aren't friends and never would be.]
If you know the names of the teas, make a list. I guess I can look for blankets. I don't know where...
[Blankets were just always in blankety places?]
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Well, there's...tea. ( He vaguely knows there may be different types but fuck if he remembers what they are. ) I'll look around the marketplace to see if they have different kinds?
( Oh that also gives him another idea, since he essentially lives there. ) There are a lot of blankets in the suites. I think I could give them to you and the lizards here wouldn't mind.
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The suites...?
[That didn't quite...sound like what he'd caught from little bits and pieces of conversation as he passed by. The weird coven people were staying somewhere else, weren't they?]
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Oh, there are small rooms you can stay in in the big market area. They have better beds and more personal space than that horrible, cramped house everyone else is content with staying in.
( Having a room and bed of his own, even if the bed is lizard-sized > sharing a room with five other people and having to sleep on the ground. )
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Oh. That's...okay.
[As in "allowable"? He's still honestly fumbling with suites/sweets/gingerbread house]
If it doesn't get you -- or me -- in trouble, that should be fine. I can get them later.
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They keep trying to give me everything under the sun so I'm sure no one will miss them. ( The Palai enabling Emil into doing whatever he wants is dangerous. ) If you want anything else I'm sure they'd be more than happy to help.
( This brings up a point of interest, though, and it feels sort of weird to have to ask but... )
So where are you staying? In the big house? ( Please love yourself and say "no." )
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I don't need anything.
[...aside from the list of shit he says he needs.]
No? I told you, I'm not sleeping.
[Why would he need a place to stay? 8)]
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It frustrates Emil a bit because he's absolutely sure he didn't say anything about sleeping. )
I know you can't sleep -- are you just wandering around all day long? You have to stop sometime, don't you? ( If not to sleep but to rest his legs and sit still for a second. )
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I eat, I guess. I go places. And I scout. I don't wander.
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I know you can't sleep, but you should at least rest. All that walking has to hurt your legs eventually. ( At least, the thought of walking around for an entire day makes his knees hurt from the idea. )
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Lalli huffs angrily, but manages to keep most of his irritation out of the mental connection. He's still very clearly Not Pleased with how Emil is treating him, for...some reason.]
I'm not an idiot, I sit down. Just...stop. It's not a problem and it's really not your problem.
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Why do you keep getting mad at me? I didn't do anything wrong!
( There's some friendship speech about Your Problems Are My Problems and an assurance that he thinks Lalli is bizarre but not an idiot, but neither of these are at the forefront of his mind right now.
It's all the more frustrating when he does what he thinks is right but never seems to be rewarded except for maybe a few back and forths before more attitude comes out. )
I'm trying.
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...
[Okay. He can work with this. Just take a breath -- ]
You didn't do anything wrong. [theeere we go] You didn't do anything.
[what Lalli no, what about the breath]